GRIEVEING.....PT. 2\

HAVING LIVED THRU THE AIDS CRISIS WHEN WE ALL LOST SO MANY SO QUICKLY I WORKED VERY HARD AT NOT BECOMING HARDENED TO THE DEATHS I STILL WEAR MY GOD IS GREATER THAN AIDS BUTTON WHICH WAS ONE OF MY TRADEMARKS MY DEAR DEAR SISTER BRUCE MCCLAIN WAS MY FIRST AND VENTURA AND I MANAGED TO GET A PANEL IN THE QUILT FOR HIM AND I GOT MY BABY JEFF GOLD ONE BUT AS THE YEARS HAVE QUICKLY FLOWN BY AND THE COCKTAIL IS KEEPIN MORE AND MORE PEOPLE ALIVE THANK GOD I STILL HAVE SUCH A DIFFICULT TIME WITH LOOSING PEOPLE REALLY CLOSE TO ME LKIE JOEY AND DENI I TRIED TO WATCH A MOVIE THAT HE WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AND LAUGH OUT LOUD EVERY TIME I D HEAR HIM OVER IN HIS ROOM JUST CACKELING AWAY AND I KNEW HE WAS WATCHING "MUST LOVE DOGS" I STARTED IT BUT JUST COULDN T DO IT W/O THINKING OF HIM AND GETTING SAD I CANT EVEN WATCH ANY REAL VIOLENT MOVIES RIGHT HOW AT LEAST I MISS DENI SO MUCH AS I ALWAYS SAID HE LOVED ME MORE AND BETTER THAN ANY LOVER EVER DID AND HE LOVED MY RHODA AND SHE S NOT AN EASY CAT TO LOVE SHE D SCRATCH HIM SOMETIMES AND HE D SAY "OH I CAN TELL BY THE EXPRESSION ON HER FACE IF SHE S NOT IN THE MOOD" GAWD HE WAS SUCH AN ANIMAL NUT AND I MISS HIM I M TRYING TO GET IT TOGETHER TO DIVIDE HIS ASHES UP AND GET THEM UP TO THE BAY AREA FOR PAM AND MARK HIS LONG TIME FRIENDS TO SCATTER AS HE WANTED BUT BUT JUST HAVEN T BEEN ABLE TO DO IT MAYBE AFTER THE HOLIDAYS I KNOW HE S UP THERE WITH JOEY AND YOU CAN BET JOEY S KIKING HIS ASS I MISS THEM BOTH
THANK GOD FOR MY LOVING FAMILY AA AND BLOOD RELATIVES BARB MY WONDERFUL SISTER-IN-LAW WHO CAME OUT AND GAVE ME MY 20 YEAR CAKE WAS SO LOVING TO DENI HE NEVER GOT OVER HER GETTING HIM A CROSS FOR CHRISTMAS HE SHOWED IT TO EVERYONE AND WOULD ALWAYS SAY "SHE DOESN T EVEN KNOW ME AND LOOK....THAT S HOW TERRY SUE S FAMILY ARE" AND HE THOT THE SUN ROSE AND SET ON MY FAVORITE REDHEAD MY DEAR NEICE TAMMIE THEY EMAILED EACH OTHER A LOT WHAT A LOVING MAN HE WAS AND WHAT A HATEFULL DISEASE TOOK HIM I MISS HIM AND SO DOES RHODA SHE GRIEVED AND CRIED FOR HIM FOR A LONG TIME AS I ALWAYS SAY TIME HEALS
I GUESS I FORGET THE OLDER I GET THE MORE PEOPLE I M GOING TO LOOSE SO I NEVER MISS THE OPPROTUNITY TO SAY I LOVE YOU

A M F L TERRY SUE