Babies and other loved ones...........

IT S BEEN A WHILE HUH??? BUT I JUST HAVEN T TAKEN THE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND GET GOING SO HERE WE ARE NOT A WHOLE LOT TO SAY BUT I DO WANNA SAY HOW GREATFULL I AM FOR THE BABIES (SPONSEES IN THE AA PROGRAM) WHO HAVE HELPED ME NOW AND IN THE PAST GETTING THRU ALL THIS EMOTIONAL SHIT SURE HASN T BEEN EASY BUT THEN AS JOAN SAYS NO BODY SAID LIFE WAS EASY CHRISTINE I HAVE A BABY IN LAW RON STAYING HERE FOR A FEW DAYS AND HE AND MORGAN WHO IS IN OKLAHOME DONT ASK ARE THE ONES WHO GAVE MY APPARTMENT AN EXTREME MAKEOVER THANX I TALK WITH MARK DTI ALMOST EVERY DAY AND HE CONTINUES TO BE SUCH A LOVING AND CARRING MAN WHETHER KIM FUK TOY THINKS I SPONSOR HIM OR NOT I M GOING TO LONG BEACH FOR THANKSGIVING WITH THE COUPON MASTER KWANSIE AND I CERTAINLY HAVE A LOT TO BE THANKFULL FOR HUH?? TONIGHT TAN MIKE IS TAKING ME TO AMEE SEMPLE MCFEARSONS CHURCH DOWN BY ECHO PARK DOES ANYONE REMEMBER HER??? BETTE AND FAYE DID A MOVIE ABOUT HER BIG SCANDALOUS "DISAPERANCE" HAPPY AA BIRTHDAY TO ED 3YEARS AND NICK 2YEARS I SPOKE WITH MY DEAR SIS INLAW BARBAR AND AS ALWAYS HAD A GOOD TALK WILL BE GOING TO COLUMBUS ON THE 18TH TIL THE 28TH FOR CHRISTMAS AS I HAVE FOR THE LAST 67 YEARS WILL NOT BE THE SAME W/O TOM BUT THIS YEAR I LL BE GOING TO HEAR MY GREAT NEPHEW ERIK THE CHRISTMAS BIRTHDAY BOY PLAY HIS CELLO RECITAL AINT I BLESSED TO HAVE ALL THIS LOVE IN MY LIFE?????
AND CONGRATS TO LEE ON HIS NEW MGMNT OF DENVER BUNNY HUTCH
LOVE AND SERENITY
TERRY SUE

MONDAY BLAHHHHHHHSSS

NOW THAT I M FINALLY GETTING THE KNACK OF THIS I DON T HAVE MUCH TO POST TODAY SORTA BLAHHHHH NOT FEELING THAT HOT WITH THIS COLD SO JUST TAKING IT EASY AND LOTS OF VITAMEN C WILL SOON BE ABLE TO POST PIX ON THIS BLOG AS WELL AS UTUBE THANGS ACOORDING TO ED LIKE HIS VIDEO HE DID FOR MY 25TH AA BIRTHDAY BASH AT CATCH ONE I M GOING TO BE WRITING ABOUT THE BABYS AND POSTING SOME PIX FROM HALLOWEEN ETC SO STAY
TUNED AND KEEP THOSE COMMENTS AND ???????S COMMING I STILL HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO DO THEM

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TERRY SUE

GRIEVEING.....PT. 2\

HAVING LIVED THRU THE AIDS CRISIS WHEN WE ALL LOST SO MANY SO QUICKLY I WORKED VERY HARD AT NOT BECOMING HARDENED TO THE DEATHS I STILL WEAR MY GOD IS GREATER THAN AIDS BUTTON WHICH WAS ONE OF MY TRADEMARKS MY DEAR DEAR SISTER BRUCE MCCLAIN WAS MY FIRST AND VENTURA AND I MANAGED TO GET A PANEL IN THE QUILT FOR HIM AND I GOT MY BABY JEFF GOLD ONE BUT AS THE YEARS HAVE QUICKLY FLOWN BY AND THE COCKTAIL IS KEEPIN MORE AND MORE PEOPLE ALIVE THANK GOD I STILL HAVE SUCH A DIFFICULT TIME WITH LOOSING PEOPLE REALLY CLOSE TO ME LKIE JOEY AND DENI I TRIED TO WATCH A MOVIE THAT HE WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AND LAUGH OUT LOUD EVERY TIME I D HEAR HIM OVER IN HIS ROOM JUST CACKELING AWAY AND I KNEW HE WAS WATCHING "MUST LOVE DOGS" I STARTED IT BUT JUST COULDN T DO IT W/O THINKING OF HIM AND GETTING SAD I CANT EVEN WATCH ANY REAL VIOLENT MOVIES RIGHT HOW AT LEAST I MISS DENI SO MUCH AS I ALWAYS SAID HE LOVED ME MORE AND BETTER THAN ANY LOVER EVER DID AND HE LOVED MY RHODA AND SHE S NOT AN EASY CAT TO LOVE SHE D SCRATCH HIM SOMETIMES AND HE D SAY "OH I CAN TELL BY THE EXPRESSION ON HER FACE IF SHE S NOT IN THE MOOD" GAWD HE WAS SUCH AN ANIMAL NUT AND I MISS HIM I M TRYING TO GET IT TOGETHER TO DIVIDE HIS ASHES UP AND GET THEM UP TO THE BAY AREA FOR PAM AND MARK HIS LONG TIME FRIENDS TO SCATTER AS HE WANTED BUT BUT JUST HAVEN T BEEN ABLE TO DO IT MAYBE AFTER THE HOLIDAYS I KNOW HE S UP THERE WITH JOEY AND YOU CAN BET JOEY S KIKING HIS ASS I MISS THEM BOTH
THANK GOD FOR MY LOVING FAMILY AA AND BLOOD RELATIVES BARB MY WONDERFUL SISTER-IN-LAW WHO CAME OUT AND GAVE ME MY 20 YEAR CAKE WAS SO LOVING TO DENI HE NEVER GOT OVER HER GETTING HIM A CROSS FOR CHRISTMAS HE SHOWED IT TO EVERYONE AND WOULD ALWAYS SAY "SHE DOESN T EVEN KNOW ME AND LOOK....THAT S HOW TERRY SUE S FAMILY ARE" AND HE THOT THE SUN ROSE AND SET ON MY FAVORITE REDHEAD MY DEAR NEICE TAMMIE THEY EMAILED EACH OTHER A LOT WHAT A LOVING MAN HE WAS AND WHAT A HATEFULL DISEASE TOOK HIM I MISS HIM AND SO DOES RHODA SHE GRIEVED AND CRIED FOR HIM FOR A LONG TIME AS I ALWAYS SAY TIME HEALS
I GUESS I FORGET THE OLDER I GET THE MORE PEOPLE I M GOING TO LOOSE SO I NEVER MISS THE OPPROTUNITY TO SAY I LOVE YOU

A M F L TERRY SUE

HERE WE GO AGAIN............AS PROMISED

HERE WE GO AGAIN 2ND DAY IN A ROW WHOOOOOOOOOAAA IM GOING TO TRY NO AS KATHY WATT SAYS DON T TRY, DO POST A NEW BLOG DAILY FOR AT LEASR THE NEXT WEEK AS PER TODDS DIRECTION I HAD ABOUT HALF OF THIS ALREADY TYPED AND THE PHONE RANG AND I GOT TO TALKING TO VATO AND LOST IT FUCK ME RUNNING SO I HAVE TO LEARN TO SAVE IT WHEN I HAVE AN INTERRUPTION DIDN T IT AUTOMATICALLY SAVE IT THE LAST TIMD? I DONT KNOW IF IT DID OR NOT AND I CERTAINLY DON T KNOW WHERE IT IS IF IT DID SO KISS MY ASS AND PLANT A TREE FOR ISREAL ANY WAY IM FIGHTING OFF A COLD SO OF COURSE THERES ALWAYS ROOM FOR DEPRESSION TO CREEP IN AND IT HAS I WANT TO TALK ABOUT GRIEVING WHICH I KNOW EVERYONE DOES DIFFERENTLY BUT I DON T DO WELL WITH DEATH OR GRIEVING I GUESS NO ONE REALLY DOWS HUHHHHH? IT SEEMS LIKE I VE HAD A LOT OF IT THE LAST YEAR BUT LOOSING MY OLDER BROTHER TOM AS REALLY BEEN DIFICULT FOR ME THERE S FIVE YEARS BETWEEN THE THREE STARKER BOYZ TOM TERRY AND TIM YES I HAVE THE MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME YOU TOO?? LET ME KNOW BUT TOM AND I HAD GROWN MUCH CLOSER OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS HE WAS ALWAYS MY HERO AND PROTECTOR "WHAT CHU CALL HIM??" HE D SAY TO SOME BULLY WHO WAS TORMENTIN ME AS HE PUNCHED HIM OUT !!!! "I LL CALL HIM ANYTHING I WANT BUT YOU CANT" ONCE WHEN WE WERE SITTING AROUND THE KITCHEN TABLE DONG HIS CROSSWORD I ASKED HIM SOMETHING ABOUT ME BEING GAY AND HE SAID "WHAT THE HELL DO I CARE WHO YOU SLEEP WITH?" WHO WILL I WATCH THE GAME SHOWS WITH THIS YEAR? TODD
AND I GUESS ILL HAVE TO PASS ON THE DIFFICULT PUZZLE/GAME I ALWAYS GOT FOR HIM TO CHRIS MY NEPHEW-IN-LAW ILL REALLY MISS TOM THIS CHRISTMAS AND ALWAYS

FINALLY..............

HI KIDS SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG BUT I HAD TO GET INSTRUCTIONS ON HOW TO...THANK GAWD FOR MY VERY PATIENT NEPHEW TODD ANY WAY A LOT HAS HAPPEBNED SINCE LAST WE BLOGGED I WENT TO SEE BEST IN DRAG THE AID FOR AIDS BENIFIT AND SAW A GREAT SHOW ALTHO THE WINNER WAS OBVIOUS FROM THE START MARTIN SHEEN ONE OF THE JUDGES BROT THE HOUSE DOWN LOTTA SLOTS AND RAFFIE WERE GREAT AS ALWAYS 300 GRAND WAS RAISED
WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN MISS OHIO YEARS AGO WHEN LILLY WHITE ASKED ME GOD BLESS HER AND DALTON BUT NO $$$$$$$ AND IT TAKES PLENTY ILL JUST HAVE TO BE HAPPY WITH GRAND DIVA OF THE AA PARIS IS BURNING TITLE WHERE IS MUNECA??? I HEARD THE BIG APPLE ANY WAY MOVING RIGHT ALONG LAST NIGHT WAS HALLOWEEN AND I WORKED AT VIDEOACTIVE IN FULL DRAG WHAT FUN AND NO I WAS NOT SHIRLEY MCCLAINE, SUSAN HAYWARD OR CAROL BURNETT JUST CAUSE I HAD ON JEFF THORNES GIFR THE RED WIG INSTEAD OF THE TIRED OLD WHITE TONY SUE(WHO WILL BE SPEAKING AT MENS STAG THIS TUESDAY) WIG WHICH I HAD BORROWED SO MANY TIMES HE FINALLLY JUST GAVE IT TO ME A HEART AS BIG AS HIS DICK I HAD A GREAT TIME AND DIDNT HAVE TO GO INTO WEST HOLLYWOOD SNAKE PIT ALTHO I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW WHAT THE BIG COSTUME WAS THIS YEAR LARRY CRAIG TOLIET STALL BRITNEYS CUNT OR UGLY BETTY??? OH I DRESSED AS SCARRY SUE THE LADY FEEDERLE THOT I WAS DONG KISMET LOTS OF CANDY AND FUN BUT WHY DOESNT SILVER LAKE DO SOMETHING OUT HERE FOR GAY CHRISTMAS OCT 31ST MAYBE I SHOULD TRY AND GET SOMETHING GOING INSTEAD OF BITCHING ABOUT IT CAUSE THE AT CENTER AND HOLLYWOOD SQS SURRE AINT CUTTIN IT IM GOING TO MAKE A REALL EFFORT TO BLOG EVERY DAY FOR THE NEXT WEEK ITS NOT LIKE I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO AFTER ALL I AM SSEMI RETIRED AND I DONT HAVE TO SLEEP UNTIL THE COWS COME HOME WHAT EVER TIME THAT IS I EVEN WATCHED SOME OF THE WORLD SERIES SINCE LEE IS IN DENVER THEY LOST ANYWAY IM OFF TO THE VAN NESS HOUSSE WITHMY VBGF THE LADY TOMLINSON SO LA LA AND TA TA FOR NOW
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GOD BLESS DENI TSUE